The only universe that we ever experience is through the eyes of our own perception. Therefore, in order to trust the universe, we must trust fully in ourselves first.
Being a petite young woman, it was paramount to have complete trust in myself, in my intuition, my judgement and ultimately, my journey.
It was important that I trusted that I was always being guided and protected at all times, not as form of nativity, but rather, as a way of acknowledging that all that I was experiencing was exactly what was meant to be. The situations that I attracted into my life were necessary for my growth, a direct reflection of my inner world.
One of my biggest challenges, was the fact that for the way I look, I am already naturally put at a “disadvantage” for essentially just being me. It was a truth that took me a long time to come to terms with, and is still something I am working to overcome to this day. In the world we live in today you are considerably more vulnerable to the horrors of the word as a small young female; subject to not only the same dangers as everybody else but also those posed by deliberately oblivious or undereducated men.
Although we continue to fight for an equally safe environment for beings of all sexes, the world is still full of racism, sexual abuse and inequality. I was also conscious of the fact that while in the west we may have made progress towards an egalitarian society, the rape culture was still very much real in a lot of the countries I was visiting. “ Even in Germany, rape laws were amended only in 1997 to create a legal category of marital rape”. As women we must do everything in our power to prevent the limitation of our freedom due to sex, simultaneously acknowledging how we may be perceived by others.
Being very aware that I cannot ignore my vulnerability or change it as it’s due to my physical appearance, frustrated me. I was filled with a a lot of anger towards the world. Emotion that needed to be channeled. Although I have never been one to let the way I appear limit me, the very knowledge that it changed the way people treated me made me furious.
Throughout my experiences, my perspective on the matter has been transformed. My anger at the world faded as I came to realize that simply feeling this way, would not change anything, rather I focussed on not allowing it to limit me. I did not change the way I dressed or presented myself, I just choose to be more aware. I realized it was in fact empowering. It was fulfilling to experience life without letting your physical appearance limit or define you.
And while it still meant that there were certain situations that were more dangerous because of how I looked, there were others that were made better for the same reason. By overcoming what seemed to be such a limitation at the time, I realized I was doing my part in the progression towards equality and awareness.
The best way to address this situation in my eyes is to always be completely aware of how you are coming across to someone who doesn’t know you at all. It is very important to be aware of cultural differences and language barriers as due to this so much unnecessary conflict occurs. An item of clothing or a gesture completely harmless to you, could be completely offensive in another culture, despite the purity of your intentions. Communicating properly and not assuming that people will understand, could’ve been the solution to many conflicts that arose through miscommunication.
By being aware of my presence and the impact that I have on people, I have learnt to create energetic boundaries. Boundaries which allow me to be me, whilst at the same time emanating an air of confidence, which in turn helps to protect from any negative situations or energies who would wish to take advantage of my physical vessel. Since creating these boundaries I have found myself in situations in which I could’ve easily been in danger had it not been for this forcefield.
Recently we have been hitchhiking a lot and therefore putting ourselves in potential danger as our lives have been completely in the hands of those giving us a ride. On two occasions we have been approached by men asking if they could receive some kind of sexual favor in return for the lift.
However, what was interesting about the situations was how these men even bothered to ask, they had no reason to since we were completely within their power, in their car, in the middle of the outback, miles from anywhere. It was a truly empowering experience to feel this protected by both myself and the universe when the situation could’ve taken a very different turn. It allowed me to free myself of any remaining fears or doubts that I had due to my size and sex, and to embody the fearless warrior who will never allow any part of myself to limit me.
I personally believe that when it is my time to go it won’t matter where I am.
Once you have taken all the physical precautions that you can to make a situation as safe as possible for yourself, without allowing it stop you achieving anything, you must simply trust that you will only ever attract what you need. It’s important that when you are in potentially dangerous situations, that you don’t hold doubt within, as this could easily manifest as a negative situation in the outer world. If you feel uneasy or uncertain, listen to your intuition.
I found that it was also helpful to be aware of the messages that present themselves to you. By observing the synchronicities, you know when things are right, as they seem to flow with so much ease it almost seems magical. You come to see how your mindset and attitude towards life do directly influence the situations you attract to yourself and the way in which you perceive those experiences.
There is no point worrying once you have done everything you can to make a situation as safe as possible, as this worry achieves nothing and only means that you begin to live through your mind created fear, therefore attracting “negative” or dangerous situations into your life. Our minds are a lot more powerful than many of us realize.
The words above are not an encouragement to walk blindly into dangerous situations using the justification of your trust in yourself and the universe. I aim to illustrate that once you have done everything you can, the rest is out of your control; therefore you do not need to let your fear or worry limit you. After all, you are the master and creator of your reality. Through your experiences you will learn to let your intuition (or universal mind) guide you, you will simply know when things are right or wrong. Allow yourself to trust in your judgement. Like everything in life it’s all about the balance. Balance trust with precaution and you will never be limited.