༻❁༺ Our thoughts and emotions are by nature impermanent, they arise then they pass. I have always used writing as a way to release these free flowing aspects of myself and to document realizations and lessons that have come to my conscious awareness. I have decided to share some of them with all of you, I hope you enjoy the insights into my inner world ༻❁༺
“Rather than being your thoughts and emotions be the awareness behind them” ~Eckhart Tolle~
Freedom – 12th November 2018
I feel a deep sense of freedom within me, a freedom that makes me feel utterly weightless. It feels different, something I have never experienced before. Its as if every part of me is infused with a contrasting sense of wildness yet blissfulness at the same time. The feeling is not conflicting yet completing. I feel whole, as if my every essence is brimming and teaming with life, everlasting Love and infinite spirit. I am free from the torments of my mind, free from the expectations of myself and others, free from the bottomless pit of longing that resided within, free to travel and experience the universe as I desire. I am a fiercely empowered Goddess with the whole world unfolding before me like the endless waves of a boundless ocean. I feel only a deep sense of gratitude and acceptance towards all that I will come to see and experience, towards all that I will come to learn and share. No one can take this from me for it is who I AM. I am an embodiment of ultimate freedom and Unconditional Love.
Through a deep understanding of acceptance we come to truly free ourselves, free ourselves from the expectation of how we think things “should” turn out or how we believe people “should” act. In freeing ourselves of these expectations, we become love itself. For love is unconditional, love is acceptance and most importantly love is freedom.
I am at one, at one with myself, at one with all that IS. As this never ending sense of freedom fills my body, my mind wanders creatively to all the many possibilities that are presented before me, I feel no desire to choose. I feel no desire to go out of my way to decide, only to respond to what manifests before me. For there is a great wisdom in allowing things to play out, in not feeling the need to make a decision out of a fear of losing out.
Through this wisdom we allow our souls; our intuition, to guide us to where we are supposed to be. Our souls know no limits, our souls are wildly and fiercely free.
Freedom is limitless when it is total. Yet so frequently, it’s true nature, its true potential, is misunderstood.
In the western world that so many of us live in today we are blessed with so much physical freedom, to do as we choose, to go where we please and to say what we want. A gift for which we must be extremely grateful.
Yet ask yourself, are you truly free? Are you embodying freedom to its totality?
We are told that we are free, free to do as we choose or as we wish, yet are we truly free if we are being controlled by our conditioned minds? Conditioning that influences our thoughts, feelings and desires. Conditioning that we are subjected to by society, by the media and by all of those around us. Ask yourself; how much of what you think, feel or want is truly yours?
We are always going to be influenced to a certain extent by our environments, our cultures, our relationships etc. but we must become aware. Aware of what is the influence of the external world and what is not. In doing so we give ourselves the freedom to choose what we allow to shape us and what we simply experience, observe and then let go. Become the witness, observe what influences you and how it influences you. Ask yourself is it ultimately beneficial to your growth and happiness? Choose the environments and energies you surround yourself with wisely, allow them to become a reflection of your inner journey. Choose to connect with the beings that inspire you, not those who hold expectation over you.
To be truly free we must free ourselves of our conditioning, of our negative thought patterns, of our fear and of our need to be constantly doing and achieving. It is only then, when we are truly enlightened from who we were told to be or think we are, that we taste the indescribably empowering essence of limitless freedom. Find your freedom, filter through the clutter in your mind. Distinguish between what is yours and free yourself from what no longer serves you. Free yourself from all that you have been told to think or feel, empower and ground yourself in the reality of who YOU truly are, away from all of this. You are an eternal being of Love and Light who holds within such immeasurable potential, potential with which you have the complete freedom to do completely as you please. Fight for your freedom, for you are a warrior queen/king and no one can take that from you, not even your own mind.
The movement of my mind
My mind moves, constantly changing its perception in sync with the waves of emotion that course through my body, forever flowing, they never seize, like the cycles of life. The depth that this emotional wave affects me too is beyond conception of anyone outside my mind. As my mind falls out of alignment with my heart, my emotions un align from my actions, I plateau. I reach a place of stillness where only my mind remains revolving, processing, yet also procrastinating. My true self is ultimately so aware of the mind, yet that does not stop it from taunting constantly with its trivial little games. As the wave lulls my mind jumps at the opportunity to revolve around negative patterns yet my true self is too aware for this to go unnoticed. I feel my mind wander only to be caught by self a few minutes later. This doesn’t make it feel any easier, the chatter becomes predictable almost as if self knows the games the mind is playing, she has heard this tune many a time, yet can only accept and look on amused, allowing the wave to lull, only to then peak again. The reality of this observation is one of true beauty. To truly observe and know one’s mind unlocks limitless potential within you. Living outside of the mind, the world truly becomes magical. I feel the strongest parts of my mind play on the remaining insecurities, hoping to sink the self into the depths of the wave, yet self prevails. My mind’s eye becomes tinted in correlation to where I am in my wave, at its depths a dark tint shrouds my world consuming every part and thought within it. Yet even within the depths of my mind the true self exists; The warrior queen of Unconditional Love and Light that is always observing.. a gentle reminder from reality. Reality always surpasses the mind, true alignment is impossible to compete with.
As my wave continues its dance I come to accept and allow the natural cycle of my universe, I appreciate my journey as it is when it is, for it is all that exists. Each moment brings clarity as it occurs just as it was meant to occur. I feel complete compassion for my journey, acting in each moment with alignment to my emotions, allowing them to dictate my path as the mind strays from its true purpose. Time is my ally, only time will bring true clarity. I accept that there is no absolute clarity for the only clarity that truly exists is that which you know in the NOW, yet does there need to be any other?
Would it even be real if there was?
I know the answers,
I embody the answers,
I am the answers.